I believe in love

Does love ever REALLY go away?

If you’ve loved somebody once, and the relationship doesn’t work, what happens to the love?

Does it convert into something different from love?
A muted love? A watered-down version of love?

I have to admit that for me, it’s just not that cut-and-dry. The one I used to love? Well, I mean, I don’t HATE him. I can’t even say that sometimes I don’t want to see him. Or, more honestly, want him to see me. I can’t say that seeing his image doesn’t make my heart jump a little. I can’t say that I don’t wonder if we could have made it, in another world. But do I still LOVE him?

You know what…..?

I don’t know.

For now, somebody else’s words will do. Music is life.

I Used To Love Him
Lauryn Hill feat. Mary J. Blige                                                    

As I look at what I’ve done
The type of life that I’ve lived
How many things I pray the Father will forgive
One situation involved a young man
He was the ocean
And I was the sand
He stole my heart
Like a thief in the night
Dulled my senses
And blurried my sight

I used to love him, now I don’t
I used to love him, but now I don’t

I chose a road of passion and pain
Sacrified too much and waited in vain
Gave up my power
Ceased being queen
Addicted to love like the drug of fiend

Torn and confused, wasted and used
Reached a crossroad, which path would I choose?
Stuck and frustrated, I waited, debated
For something to happened that just wasn’t fated
Thought what I wanted was something I needed
When momma said no then I just shoulda heeded
Misled I bled til the poison was gone
And out of the darkness arrived the sweet dawn

I used to love him, now I don’t
I used to love him, but now I don’t

Father, you saved me
And You showed me that life
Was much more than being some foolish man’s wife
Showed me that love was respect and devotion
Greater than planets, and deeper than any ocean
See my soul was weary
But now it’s replenished
Content because that part of my life is finished

I see him sometimes and the look in his eye
Is one of a man who’s lost treasures untold
But my heart is gone, see I took back my soul
And totally let my Creator control
The life which was his — to begin with

I used to love him
Now I don’t